I managed to get myself up early and head to the clinic to get my results from the blood test I did last week. When I got called on Wednesday I was told my TSH (snort, THC levels was not right!) levels were high and that I would need a new dose of my thyroid medication. Ok, I'm used to always changing my doses. So I go in, do the whole seeing the nurse thing (she was very nice!) and then I am waiting to see the doctor. I am nervous (I hate going to the clinic) and just want my new prescription and leave. Well the minute the doctor walking in I knew she was going to treat me like crap. She had this look on her face, the look of hating ones job, hating patients..hating everything. Great.
She then proceeds to tell me the test is messed up. That I messed it up. What?? She said it must be because I was sick. Uhh no I was not sick, and I have gotten this blood test done before while I was sick and I never had any issues. But no she ignored me and they yelled at me for not bringing my medication. I never had to bring it before, I knew my dosage but she didn't believe I was on that amount and continued yelling at me for not bringing my medication. I know it's important to bring the medication but I was always ignored when I would show my pills so I just didn't bring it. I mean I was told I was getting a new dose and that was it! She then said that the levels look normal but something is working harder than it should...what the fuck does that mean? She does not explain further. So she hands me another sheet to get a blood test and then gets ready to leave. I get up and leave. I can barely make it out the clinic before I have a full on break down.
I spent 5 minutes in my car crying. I feel like shit. I hate doctors. I hate my thyroid. My whole life I have been told it's my fault it's messed up. Why aren't you fixing it!! Get better goddammit!! I don't even know if I want to get the blood test. I just can't handle being treated like crap because my thyroid issue wont fix itself. Maybe there is something else going on, but they refuse to even consider it. I'm just lazy and that is why it will never work right.
So today I am a mess. I am constantly on the verge of crying.
That SUCKS! could it be that your thyroid being off-balance is also making you feel down, too?
ReplyDeleteI don't feel down all the time. I mean I am still on edge about daddy and now I'm really worried about your dad. And now I am upset about always being ignored by doctors. Today has been a down day.
ReplyDeleteWhen I got called two days ago I was told my thyroid was high...which is good for me (it is always way too low) but then I get told that they have no clue what is going on. Depression can be a symptom of hypothyroidism (what I got) but I don't feel depressed at all (went through it once in my life). I actually feel like I have more energy. So I really don't know what to think. I've been dealing with this/being told it's all my fault since I was 13, it's getting old and i'm on my last straw :(
I have a thyroid issue, too, but I don't go to the doctor for it. The last time I did, she told me it wasn't bad enough to deal with meds. So, I'm cold all the time and can't lose weight, but otherwise no real problems with it. I'm sorry you had such a hard time with the doc, I hate them too. They could stand to be nicer!
ReplyDeleteI get tired and cold all the time. I have hypothyroidism. In my case, after using bovine thyroid for 2 months, I feel much better.
ReplyDeleteI will check out the bovine thyroid. I have constant temperature changes, I can never find a happy medium.
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