Hair Saga

I am a blonde. I used to have see through blonde hair but by the time I dyed it for the first time it was more of a dirty blonde. But still very blonde. I looked horrible. I was so washed out. I keep telling my mom that something went wrong when my dad and her conceived me because I should have been a red head. My dad was a red head! But no I got stuck with blonde.

Even Marc has never seen my nautral hair colour. And I actually think that is a little sad.

I started dyeing my hair at around the age of 15. I had done a perm two years before (o god that was horrendous!) so I figured dyeing my hair wouldn't be that bad. I asked my mom about it and she agreed but only if it was a natural colour (browns, reds, other blondes, almost black). We were going to go with a brown colour but we decided to try out red. Well it was like an Auburn red (I can't remember the colour). It actually looked good! I had a moment where I flipped out when my mom said "OMG your hair is PURPLE!!!!" cause you know the wet dye turns purple, but I did not know this. She has not let that one go and I'm 24 :P.

So from the age of 15 to my current age of 24 I have tried every friggin colour of red out there. Sometimes it looks bad and I go back to a "safe" red, sometimes it looks really good. But lately I have been wanting my blonde hair back, maybe not forever, but I want to see it again. I look at old pictures and I miss the blonde. Thing is I have no efffin clue on how to go about going back to my blonde roots. I know it will never be the same blonde it was, hell I might not have blonde hair again (my mom went from blonde to brown in her twenties) but I'd like to see it. And when my roots come in I can see the blonde, so I'm hopeful that I still have some blonde under the almost 10 years of red dye. I have been asked if I had grey hair, my roots are so damn blonde.

I don't know if I have to bleach or what. I'm scared of bleaching my hair and I don't think my hairdresser will let me. I have thin thin hair so I think it will fall out. And I don't want to just grow it out. That will take for.ever. and look like crap. I'm thinking of maybe just dyeing my hair lighter shades but I tried that. This is the red I am currently and this is the red I have tried to lighten my hair. The copper blonde didn't do to well. It did lighten it a bit but it was too coppery.

 Dark Red (picture taken today, my camera phone flash is evil)

Copper Blonde (taken maybe a month ago)








Hmm now that I see that picture with the copper blonde I kinda like it. Or maybe I am just crazy. Also I miss that length of hair (grow faster hair...FASTER!)

Anyways, I am not sure what to do. When I enter the beauty section of any store I immediately start whimper inside. It's like I entered an unknown world and I just want to crawl into the nearest corner and shake. I mean look I can't even do my makeup! I'm a complete mess when it comes to hair and face stuff.

So what should I do? How do I go about going blonde without killing my hair? Also I don't have a lot of money right now so it has to be on the semi cheap.