Eat. Drink. Laugh. Be Merry!

Christmas.

Christmas is coming up. It's coming up fast.

This year will be different. I don't know yet if it will be good, bad, or just all right. I'm hoping for great honestly.

My family will be missing one person this holiday season. He would be the one to call our names out and hand the gifts to us. He would sit in the middle of the pile and take charge. Making sure each person opened a gift in turn. He would then go on a rant about never having enough batteries to try out a new toy :P. Then we would all gather in the kitchen and eat leftovers from the party the night before and muffins my mom would make. He'd make sure there was enough coffee for a couple dozen people.

I'm not sure what the mood is going to be like with my dad gone now. I have no clue what to expect. I'm used to expecting a certain mood for the holidays, a certain way the day goes. This year I'm groping in the dark.

I do have to remember though, that there are people I love and cherish who are still here. That family will still be getting together and it's up to us, as a group, to make the mood cheerful and hopeful. It's up to us to keep his memory alive and well but we need to do that trough the laughter. He wouldn't accept moping on Christmas.

So what will this Christmas bring? Family. It will bring us together, even the ones who have moved on.

I know it's still early but:

Merry Christmas!


Smile. Laugh. Drink. Eat. Be together. At Christmas the food is always better, the drinks tastier, the laughs louder. At Christmas the things family do to drive you up the wall no longer matter. Go hug the one you love. Call someone you haven't talked to in a long time. And remember the ones who have passed on.

Cooking and an outfit post!

The heat and humidity has returned. At least it's making me drink a crap ton of water :).

Yesterday was miserable though, Marc got sick because of the heat and because I realized he hadn't really drank any water :P. Once I got some water in him he felt better. But because of the heat we didn't really feel like cooking, much less eating what we cooked. But we did anyways because I found this recipe online and it sounded yummy.

I forgot to cut the chicken breasts in half so I ended up cooking two big chicken breasts but it gave Marc some left overs to bring to work :).

I wrapped a sprig of rosemary in and then wrapped two pieces of bacon around the chicken (wondering why one piece wasn't big enough until Marc informed me the chicken needed to be smaller :P). Anyways, I then realized I forgot to add the garlic so I sprinkled some garlic salt on top.

Looks good!

Then I stuck 'em on the bbq! Because of the size of the chicken it took a lot longer than the recipe says- 8 minutes per side. I had them on the bbq for at least 30min or so. Maybe my bbq doesn't heat up as fast.

BBQ Goodness

In the mean time we boiled some veggies. When we cut them up to start eating they were soooo juicy. The bacon added a great taste (but bacon adds a great taste to anything!) and the rosemary was a nice touch. The chicken and veggies were the only thing we cooked, we just didn't really feel like eating much in the heat. But it was a nice meal for a hot day, it did not feel heavy in my stomach afterwards.

Yummy!

Today I made a spaghetti sauce but didn't document it because it was hot and I just wanted to get it over with ;). Tomorrow we are heading out to pick up Marcs sister and our niece! It will be nice to see them.


O and I got this dress yesterday:

My hair is a mess and my makeup is trying to escape my face, it is that hot :P

And here are some glamour shots of my babies :):

Yes, I will take this corner. Thank you.

Today is the day folks. Today I try Chinese take out. My stomach is already doing the nervous dance.

I had a mini rant about someone today with Marc. Not screaming or anything just a rant. I was sad and frustrated (and out of bagels). Mid rant Marc says his dad might be going home today, awesome! I'm glad they could be sending him home so soon. I do believe that if it's not serious (need constant watch) being home to heal is a lot better than the hospital. You are around people you love, you are not constantly stuck on someone else's schedule (and most times the person caring for you does not want to be there), you don't have someone coming in to probe you every half hour etc. You can relax and be in surroundings that are much more comfortable than a hospital room.

I had a horrible moment today. I had the "I have NOTHING to wear!!!" moment. You know when you open your closet and suddenly it is empty. O, there are clothes but there really isn't any clothes. I hate those moments. So I crawled onto my bed and pouted, then I spent ooooo 2 hours trying on everything I had. I think the lack of a strapless bra is starting to get to me. Suddenly I have no clothes, it's like I can NOT dress myself without that damn strapless bra.

So I gave in: I put clear straps on my falling apart strapless bra and went about with my day. BUT then the outfit turned on me. It didn't look right. NOTHING looked right. It's the horrible twin sister of the "I have nothing to wear". You see all these clothes and possible outfits you can put together but once on your body...well it's a mess. That dress looked great on me two days ago, what the hell is wrong with me? Dammit body stop messing with my head! I put said outfit on, but no I have a lopsided boob, my ass looks gigantic, my legs are horrible!! I become a mess. What did I do? I went pee and ignored the mirror.

So that was my day. I was attacked by the "I have nothing to wear" monster and by her evil twin sister the "Nothing looks right" monster. I beat them but it was a close thing. The corner of my bedroom looked like a good place to crumble into the fetal position and mumble strange things.

Good news everyone!

You totally said that in the professors voice, admit it!

We got news today that Marcs dad is in remission. From what Marc told me the doctor sounded very happy with his latest progress. It is such a relief to get some good news!

He is still in the hospital because they want to stabilize him and do some physio but hopefully he will be on his way home soon.

The car is out to get us

I was going to do an outfit post buuuuuut that will have to wait till this weekend or next week. Unfortunately my strapless bra is dead and a lot of my summer clothes require a strapless bra. And I am not of the no bra wearing variety, so some outfits look stupid with my bra straps showing :P

Besides that it is so hot here! I hate it. I need the cold weather back *falls to ground crying*

Marc bought a coupon yesterday for half off at a Chinese restaurant in the area. We have never been to this place but the reviews seem good. I am nervous though. I am not a fan of Chinese, Thai, Japanese....Asian style food, in general (except sushi). But I am picky about Chinese food, I had some bad experiences and only one good one. The one good place is downtown and pretty expensive so that's a no. I guess I have to be brave and try it. I'll let you know how that goes.

Next week I think Marcs sister is coming up with her daughter. It will be nice to see them. We are then having a party or something for Marcs parents but I'm not sure if I will be sticking around for that. What we might do is go down to their place early, and then I will leave to go see my mom and come back when Marc is ready to leave. I'll need to check what my moms doing first but I think that is what I will do. I haven't been to my moms in awhile and since I am in the area it makes sense to take the little detour.

This weekend Marc and I had a spat, we have been really stressed and then the stupid car decided to be an ass. All of it at once was too much for us. We found out though, at least I figured it out, that we have not been communicating much (talking about how we feel, the stress, being on what I have called "death watch"). With my dad gone and now Marcs dad in and out of the hospital we have been pulled all over the place and it got to be too much. We did though end the spat in a good way. We agreed on some things and he realized that I have not been able to see my family in awhile (that's why he's fully supporting me in not attending the party next week).

The car. That stupid car. It pisses us off so much, but I kinda love it in a way. It's our first car and I think 10 years from now we will laugh about it. Anyways, Friday night Marc had a GURPS game. It ended at around 11:30 or so and on his way home he stopped to grab some milk. When he went to leave the car would not switch out of park. So there he is in Ile-Perrot at a Couche-Tard close to midnight. He tried and tried but the car would not move out of park. We are both freaking because it must have something to do with the transmission, and it may not be covered and that could cost a lot of money we do not have at the moment. He calls CAA but when he's on the line he decides to try it one more time and of course the car works! He heads home and then the spat starts.

Saturday we drive around a bit and the car behaves but we are still nervous about potentially spending a lot of money. So more stress on more stress. Marc checks online for issues with our make of car and he comes across something about an issue with people not being able to switch out of park. It is not a recall, just an announcement. BUT the issue is not serious at all. It's just an annoyance. PHEW! Also it should be covered under our warranty so we only pay the deductible (which is totally doable). When we have more time we're going to take it in, but in the meantime it is nothing to worry about :).





Stupid car

Deal with it people

You know I hate how some people feel the need to "educate" me on my body. Like I have absolutely no fucking clue what kind of body I have. I mean I don't do my hair in the morning, or my makeup. I get dressed in the dark! Really people? I know what I look like. I mean how do you think I get the clothes I own? Just grab whatever and poof it fits?

I can get into clothes that range from a size 20 to a 26 and a medium to a 3x. I haven't gone onto a scale in a long time because I fucking hate it. It controls so many peoples lives. I do have an idea of what I weigh.

I really do not need people telling me how to work out, what to eat...WHAT I should weigh. The best thing I keep hearing is that "When the husband dies wives lose a lot of weight". So I guess I should get rid of Marc, and then everything will be great. I also get the "You can't be healthy" Well I have to go to the doctors often because of my thyroid and I get checked up and so far the only issue I have is my hypothyroidism. I probably have a lot of stress though...and let me tell you, a glass of wine can help with that :)

I have to say though, that I have yet to get any grief from a complete stranger (at least to my face), the grief I get comes from family. You could say "They only say these things to you cause they care" really? So, when the same exact thing comes from a stranger they are just assholes? Just because family says it doesn't mean they mean well. If they meant well they would bug off. They would stop putting me on diets, they would stop with the pity, stop with the constant work out tips they hear on the view or from some 10 minute beef up DVD. They would stop comparing me to others who lost weight. News flash people: We don't all lose weight the same!

What hurts me the most is that comment "wives lose a lot of weight once their husbands die". It was said to me, and I got asked about my mothers weight. This came from someone I care about a lot, someone I truly love (no not Marc). I think people need to get over this fascination with weight. Why can't I be happy in the body I have now? Sure, I am working on losing some weight but no it's not so I can fit it that size 6 skinny jean. In fact the size I am aiming towards is around an 18ish. If I can't accept the body I have now, if I can't smile and love every roll I have when I stand naked in the mirror, how will I ever love my size 18 body?

My husband loves me. He loves my body. Maybe other people I care about can start loving me for who I am now. Telling me about this new diet will not make me a happy person. I guess I can just start giving them diet information when they tell me about a diet. See how they feel.

The long weekend

Today is the last day of the long weekend, and it has been a very good weekend! Saturday morning I picked up my brother and we headed to moms. Marc and I spent the night, it was great to see my mom and brothers :). Then we headed to see Marcs family on Sunday, because our niece was up!! It was so good to see her, I could hold her and play with her all day. She is absolutely adorable!

We were worried we wouldn't really get a chance to see her and spend some one on one time with her as some family members were coming over but we left my moms early and we had a couple of hours with her. Marc was able to read to her and give her a toy he got her to go with the book (paper bag princess). I am sad we are not able to see more of her for awhile but the few hours we had was really nice. Also seeing that she recognized us from Skype was a nice surprise :) Marc had a lot of fun with her, he even fed her some little tomato pieces. We both look forward to seeing her again!

Today (Monday) we are spending the day being lazy, we are BBQing our first steaks of the summer and watching some Boston Legal.

Nothing else has really happened the last few weeks, it has been quiet (I like it that way). It has been getting hot and humid though. I did give the dehumidifer a test today: Last summer I would do my hair (either curl it or straighten it) and not 5 minutes later it would be a ball of frizz because of the humidity, so I figured today I would see if I could straighten my hair and not sweat and have it frizz. Well, it stayed straight! It was hot in the room, the dehumidifer puts heat out but I can handle that. So we will see when it gets really humid to give it a good test but I think it will work. I miss having an air conditioner but I am not willing to pay for a portable one and we can't have one hanging out the window over cars (totally makes sense, and one of those cars is ours).

This week I will be heading out with a folder of my resumes looking for that summer job. I am not going to be too picky about where I work, it's just to get a little extra cash. I will also go shopping, yes that makes sense!! My mom gave me some spending money and there is a maxi dress I want to try out. Thanks mommy!!

Saturday Ramblings

The long weekend is going good so far. Yesterday we went to visit the husbands family and have an early Easter lunch. The food as usual was yummy! Today Marc and my youngest brother went shopping for a bit and I stayed home. I'm still fighting an infection so I've been low energy and snappy. Not fun. It's making working out difficult.

Marc came home,after running off to get a blank CD, with a card for a restaurant in our town. Apparently Marcos is now open (they had a fire a year ago or so) but they do not have any flyers/take home menus. If you're going to open your doors you might want to be a little more prepared. Anyways Marc went in and he said the owner seemed so happy that someone came in. If I were there I probably would have stayed to eat because I would feel bad for them. They do make good food and we did miss them so we're glad they are open. Marc asked if they still made cheeseburgers and the owner said they are better than before. I think this coming week we might have to place an order to take home :)

The husband has been really sweet the last few days, it's odd but I like it. He bought me a plant this week, some kind of lilly plant that will not survive because I am the plant killer, and today he came home with a gift box (shiny happy people) from Lush (if you have not checked them out do eet!!!), it contained: Happy Hippy Shower Gel, Sandstone Soap and Up You Gets Emotibomb. They all smell soooo good! He also got me whole bunch of Lindor chocolate (including their chocolate easter bunny :).

The weather is finally warming up out here (If it could stay away from the 30+ I would be a happy girl) and I went out bare legged yesterday. It was bliss! I need to stick on more self tanner though, I am a ghost! I am also out of almost all my makeup so I now have to make an expensive trip to the store. They all decide to die at the same time...buggers.



P.S. There may be a lot of spelling mistakes, I am on a very slow computer that takes forever to display what I am typing and delets letters here and there. I apologize for it.